Stay TunedPosted June 30, 2016 in Healing / Self Care
I have been surviving between the worlds recently. Living between the ‘old way’ and the new, still-birthing thing. The old way is not, by any means, bad. This is why it is so hard to leave it behind. The old way is tried and true and culturally safe, understood and identifiable. The old way is my psychotherapist self—supporting safe boundaries and active reflective listening. The old way is born from my empathetic care and relationship to others. It wants to hold hands and hold space and hold duality and hold open all explorations of reality. The old way requires a lot of holding. The old way IS holding.
The new way is not at all interested in holding. She is all transmission and heart. She does not explain. The moment She explains She dies. This absolutely breaks my heart for those who think they need the explanation–Those who do not understand and, more accurately, those who cannot FEEL. Call it low Emotional Quotient (EQ), environmental trauma or chock it up to a calcified pineal gland—but the thickness of the collective mind-density is overwhelmingly heavy. How much of our human race has completely lost the ability to trust heart-feeling over head-information?
The new way is a radical disregard for the ego comfort of all involved. There is no more time for all that careful ego reflection–Ice caps are melting, Trump is trumping and Brexit is in exit. The extremity between the density of the lower denomination and the incarnation of the invisible kingdom are wrestling on the mat. We need all the heart muscle we can muster. It is time to transmit and resonate and shift the balance of the poles. This is not a blind faith but an embodied “YES” to the longing we all recognize that lives between all thoughts.
With the intensity of the extreme duality rising, the poles become more and more charged—extreme attraction and repulsion on steroids. This lack of a stable center makes it very temping to become swept up in the surrounding hysteria or fundamentalism. The challenge is to stay grounded and loose—open and unattached– to egoic desires to understand, nail down or prove positions.
This morning after driving my son to camp, I shared with my husband the pain of this between-worlds limbo. He reminded me of the ego and Soul section of my very own book I had written two years prior: “The ego is prerecorded; the Soul is live. That is why it’s easy to understand the ego, but the Soul is a constantly changing entity, and if you want to watch the program, you have to stay tuned.” (p.22 “Meet Your Soul”.)
The image of a tuning fork immediately came to mind. My cosmic job at this turbulent time is to allow the intensity of the world to hit the unique length of my Soul prongs and simply resonate my pitch from that frequency. I do not need to change all of the world, I only need to STAY TUNED to my own pitch. It is a full time job to release the extra overtones, allow the discordance to fade and find the most True pitch that wants to ring out.
We no longer have time for navel-gazing narcissism or an ego-padded story. In truth, I guess we never did. We cannot afford to talk about Being anymore, it is time to BE.